Life is uneventful, until it is. When it appears that you are “busy” and engaged, then you forget to take time for yourself. Forget about the small things like reading a great book. Forget about how lost you are.
It’s probably in times of great heartache that we feel the need to collapse. To regain footing as it were. However, one can be sure of what they want when faced with two decisions: Do something or do nothing. For most people, the decision falls into the latter. Perhaps it’s the reminder of not having to stress about things in the past. What’s happened has happened. There is no getting around this fact.
It’s probably a great sacrifice to dedicate time to oneself. It’s a stretch to imagine that others around one would be interested in taking part in this clean mind activity as well. Because it is a cleaning of the mind that can have effective results. What are those results? Probably different depending on who is asked.
It’s probably a great time to take five. Take a break. Sleep, meditate, and walk. It’s not as though others will be joining in at this part. Hard work is usually a solo affair and the moments following this need to be solo as well.
Take time for yourself. Take time to breathe and know you are doing just fine.
It’s a nice time of year. Not really, but what do you want me to say here?
Every day might be a struggle, but I’m enduring it.
Every day might be more unproductive, but I’m managing it.
Every day I might be moving farther away from the person I wanted to be.
Every day I might not eat the foods that I want.
Every day I wake up and decide to do things and usually try to.
Despite the small setbacks of daily life, I am fairly certain that I am doing just fine. If I am at all honest, it would be to say that I am beyond fine. I am great. Not most days, internally (in the heart), but externally I can make those faces that tell others the story they would like to hear. Maybe some more than others.
It could be that I hear from an old friend today. Or that I uncover the reason behind why I am not doing what I set out to do. The reason behind why I am slow on many projects. I take my time, I think, I analyze, I discuss, and still think it important to carve out time for me. I focus on focusing on myself but then forget about the other projects. The irony is not lost on me.
So today I will be great. Maybe not a GREAT great, but up there. Quite possibly, I’ll find the spark today and my brain will ignite with possibility. I can hope can I not?
I can be free to hope and to dream for as long as I wish. It does nothing to dream without understanding why you dream.
This is turning into a post with a mind of its own. Have a splendid day that is whatever you want it to be. As it should be.
It would appear as though the month of January would like to rear its head and leave.
It would appear as though something is going to happen soon, something monumental. Maybe it’s just on the brink or maybe its leading me to wonder what the brink even is.
Quite possibly it is leading me to want to find out more about the “thing.” The great and powerful “thing” that will be coming to a year near me soon. Not sure when, as the “thing” doesn’t always announce itself but fear should be minimized as it will pop up eventually. Or, probably the opposite since it is an unknown as to what the “thing” is. So fear it, love it, or hate it. It will occur in some form.
It would appear that the “thing” then doesn’t really matter. At least I would still have my sanity, my humanity and some trace of my dignity.
Wait, though. It would appear as though no one actually cares about things such as dignity and class anymore. They should. People are not robots as much as they would like to be.
It would appear then that things are happening. Good things or bad things? It’s not for me to say.
What if everything was micro-sized? Your car, your house, your bed, even your pet. Or how about if you had fewer things because things take up space? You could be a nomad and live a travel lifestyle. It’s possible and many people quit their jobs all the time to travel and do what they kept thinking about for so long.
Could you do it? Maybe. Will you do it? Will you follow through? Probably not.
If we did all the things we write down or dream about, we might wander forever. You might say you don’t need money, but you do need to eat and you do need to pay bills. The way that you are going, you think you will never get to where you want to be. I’m just writing this as a reminder that you will get there. You will get there if you know what you want.
Goal setting isn’t a dumb idea, it is a real thing that can lead to having a purpose. The purpose you never knew you needed or wanted. You’re so close, but not yet there.
Or maybe you are there? I mean, I don’t know where there is anyway. Let your heart sing to the freedom of what it wants. Maybe you’re halfway there. Maybe you still have a long way to go.
Whatever path you hope to take on next, I hope it leads you somewhere.
It would seem that people are always going to be misguided in some way. They might say that no, not me. I’m perfect. I’m a shining star. However, at some point or another most all of us have fallen prey to the idea that we could be greater than ourselves, greater than what we can afford to be. It’s not a worthless idea, in fact, its good to have dreams as it keeps the mind healthy and active (source: me). The problem arises when the ideas are not realistic and are set into motion anyway.
Maybe you really like bowling, but you haven’t done it for a while. Whenever you do play, its strikes all around though because you’re just that good. Everyone wants you on their team. They tell you to join a bowling league. You think it could be cool, so why not? is what you ask yourself. So cool, now you’re a bowler. Now what? Basically, you start to think about other things you could be doing that are out of your everyday life. What about quitting your job and becoming a YouTuber? What about traveling to South America, because you have that thing called wanderlust and need to travel, according to some article you read. Of course, you could have the idea that you move to Canada because healthcare is free. All of these ideas and “goals” are based on a logic that you are failing in what you are currently doing. Don’t buy into that. Why?
Because YouTube is hard. Maybe 11 years ago it was cool to start a new channel and be someone big, but now many of the big stars of YouTube have an agent, or contract, or company that they work for. There is also a lot of sponsored content as well. It’s not all bad, though fooling ourselves into believing we will be great stars overnight without a large team behind us may not work out as we hoped. You also don’t need to travel. When we lust after something, that’s just a desire to have that thing in our life. Once it is gone, we move on and seek comfort in the things that we are used to. However, you could also move abroad someplace and dramatically change your life. And Canada? Sure, It’s great, but where are you from? Where is your home and will you find it in Canada? If your answer is not a surefire yes then you have no reason to leave just yet.
So keep on keeping on. Keep up the good fight. Keep the battle strong. All those euphemisms for life. You can do it without the gimmicks, you are your own person.
Oh hey. You know those fun, festive feelings that people get around parties? I think those should be everyday kinda feelings, ya feel? Like, getting so super excited it’s like a rush of endorphins or a runner’s high that leaves you wanting more. You don’t have to do drugs to feel insanely happy about life.
What’s a feeling that gets you so alive? Is it the reminder that you are doing some awesome things that you didn’t even take notice of before? Or possibly you are learning to tie your shoe for the first time with a brand new venture? Awesome and well done either way.
Is it an excitement that wakes you up each day or is it a sadness that “wow, this is my life now.” I hope not and if it is, then I hope you find a way out of that soon. It’s not great, I have been where you are and getting back to the good feelings will indeed make you happy. No, not just happy but you will feel rewarded because you have a purpose. You will know that you what you do is not worthless, because you are awesome! Yes, you are please don’t deny it! I hope you figure out what makes you happy real soon and stop waiting for the good vibrations to head your way (you gotta help them get there a little!)
Whatever you’re thinking as you’re reading this, I hope you know that you don’t have to do it all right now.