What if everything was micro-sized? Your car, your house, your bed, even your pet. Or how about if you had fewer things because things take up space? You could be a nomad and live a travel lifestyle. It’s possible and many people quit their jobs all the time to travel and do what they kept thinking about for so long.
Could you do it? Maybe. Will you do it? Will you follow through? Probably not.
If we did all the things we write down or dream about, we might wander forever. You might say you don’t need money, but you do need to eat and you do need to pay bills. The way that you are going, you think you will never get to where you want to be. I’m just writing this as a reminder that you will get there. You will get there if you know what you want.
Goal setting isn’t a dumb idea, it is a real thing that can lead to having a purpose. The purpose you never knew you needed or wanted. You’re so close, but not yet there.
Or maybe you are there? I mean, I don’t know where there is anyway. Let your heart sing to the freedom of what it wants. Maybe you’re halfway there. Maybe you still have a long way to go.
Whatever path you hope to take on next, I hope it leads you somewhere.
It would seem that people are always going to be misguided in some way. They might say that no, not me. I’m perfect. I’m a shining star. However, at some point or another most all of us have fallen prey to the idea that we could be greater than ourselves, greater than what we can afford to be. It’s not a worthless idea, in fact, its good to have dreams as it keeps the mind healthy and active (source: me). The problem arises when the ideas are not realistic and are set into motion anyway.
Maybe you really like bowling, but you haven’t done it for a while. Whenever you do play, its strikes all around though because you’re just that good. Everyone wants you on their team. They tell you to join a bowling league. You think it could be cool, so why not? is what you ask yourself. So cool, now you’re a bowler. Now what? Basically, you start to think about other things you could be doing that are out of your everyday life. What about quitting your job and becoming a YouTuber? What about traveling to South America, because you have that thing called wanderlust and need to travel, according to some article you read. Of course, you could have the idea that you move to Canada because healthcare is free. All of these ideas and “goals” are based on a logic that you are failing in what you are currently doing. Don’t buy into that. Why?
Because YouTube is hard. Maybe 11 years ago it was cool to start a new channel and be someone big, but now many of the big stars of YouTube have an agent, or contract, or company that they work for. There is also a lot of sponsored content as well. It’s not all bad, though fooling ourselves into believing we will be great stars overnight without a large team behind us may not work out as we hoped. You also don’t need to travel. When we lust after something, that’s just a desire to have that thing in our life. Once it is gone, we move on and seek comfort in the things that we are used to. However, you could also move abroad someplace and dramatically change your life. And Canada? Sure, It’s great, but where are you from? Where is your home and will you find it in Canada? If your answer is not a surefire yes then you have no reason to leave just yet.
So keep on keeping on. Keep up the good fight. Keep the battle strong. All those euphemisms for life. You can do it without the gimmicks, you are your own person.
Oh hey. You know those fun, festive feelings that people get around parties? I think those should be everyday kinda feelings, ya feel? Like, getting so super excited it’s like a rush of endorphins or a runner’s high that leaves you wanting more. You don’t have to do drugs to feel insanely happy about life.
What’s a feeling that gets you so alive? Is it the reminder that you are doing some awesome things that you didn’t even take notice of before? Or possibly you are learning to tie your shoe for the first time with a brand new venture? Awesome and well done either way.
Is it an excitement that wakes you up each day or is it a sadness that “wow, this is my life now.” I hope not and if it is, then I hope you find a way out of that soon. It’s not great, I have been where you are and getting back to the good feelings will indeed make you happy. No, not just happy but you will feel rewarded because you have a purpose. You will know that you what you do is not worthless, because you are awesome! Yes, you are please don’t deny it! I hope you figure out what makes you happy real soon and stop waiting for the good vibrations to head your way (you gotta help them get there a little!)
Whatever you’re thinking as you’re reading this, I hope you know that you don’t have to do it all right now.
What are you doing these days that you wish you could do more of? Is it reading? Is is exercising? Is it talking to your family more? Less time indoors, more time outdoors? It’s always the same. There’s never enough time, or so we like to believe when we schedule ourselves within the confines of a regular 24-hour day.
You are probably out of time. You probably just rushing to read this so you can do the next boring thing you have to do. No, you have time. You always do. It’s in our heads that there is not enough time. The great fear is that we are not spending our time wisely, that we are not doing things that are worthy of “time.” However, this undermines what is valuable: You. You may know this or you may just read this blankly knowing that the time for reading is short anyway.
I’m pretty sure that life is a waste of energy if you are not spending your time wisely. I’m pretty sure that I’m just fooling myself into wasting my time each day doing mundane things. I’m pretty fairly sure that I don’t know what to write about right now.
Speaking of people, have you heard that your brain is always in motion? It’s true. I think that studies show this and I could probably link to a few if I knew what I was even on about (but since I don’t, like usual I’ll just continue to ramble). What are you thinking about right now? I am thinking that I would like to understand why our brain does the things it does. Why do we do that instead of doing that? Or why do we go to the park instead of the movies? Why go for a walk instead of a bike ride? Why watch Netflix when we can watch YouTube? We don’t consciously make these decisions really (well sometimes we do, because maybe we really have to see the next episode) but it mostly comes from natural routine. It’s so boring and mundane that if something were to go wrong here (in this moment) our brains already know what to do and would just go with the regular, the everyday. Sorry, you have to go for a walk because that’s what your brain wants. It’s what you want too, but you can’t say it aloud.
So I think that you’re probably wondering what to do next. What to read next, what to try next or what goal to set next. Your brain already knows that you may or may not do these things. We all must work on ourselves each and every day. The signals our brain gives us lets us know that we need to focus and hone in on what matters most. I think its safe to say that you should do what you want, but always use your brain before your heart.
I’m pretty sure you’re going to be just fine. I know I am.
How do you stop a pest from growing? How do you stop a wild animal from taking cover in your sheets? How to stop those bad directions you keep getting on Google?
No easy answer to stop grieving. Grief is as real as we think it is. Recovery makes us stronger, but it takes it time to come upon us. We shatter when we think about how we are doing without careful inflection or thoughtful analysis. We do it anyway though. The shadow of your silhouette is on fire, dear.
You’re probably worse off than you think. You surround yourself with positivity to make these reminders that you are doing terrible seem less obvious. We all know the truth here though. You are actually doing unquestionably awesome. Just don’t tell that to the people who make greeting cards or they will be out of business in a field that relies on the awe of DIY and sincerity without digital means.
We’re all fine. I’m fine. You’re fine. You’ll always be alone because as humans we just are and that’s alright. We go to work alone. We come home alone. We take a shower alone. We walk alone. We are just lonely as a people, but we forge relationships and do this thing called “synergy” a great deal in an effort to make sanity a thing of the past. We are labeled as either “introverted” or “extroverted” but in truth, we are probably neither. We are probably just waiting for the bubble to break and world to end. So, labels are stupid that way because we made them up to explain ourselves to ourselves.
So keep recovering. Keep striving, keep doing well. Recovery comes in all forms. Don’t take everything you do too seriously or you will never be happy. This is a fact. Maybe you need time away from people that care the most about you. Maybe you need space. Maybe you don’t know exactly what you need right now. That’s all perfectly ok. You will make it soon enough. If you abandon the ones that care the most, though you will really be alone so don’t forget to reach out. Help is always there.
Be well, do well. You can’t be great because you are already amazing.