So they say writing is nothing and will lead to no jobs. This is not incorrect, but for literally every job on the market you need to know how to write and even better if you can do it well. Not just write, but compose documents and make sense of it enough to make someone else understand it better. Whatever that is. Wherever your heart lies.
I have much to say about being a liberal arts student and a person who loves the arts in general. But, don’t misunderstand me and think that’s all I care about. I love science. Especially astronomy and space news. No, of course I’m not a rocket scientist but are most of the people reading this? No. It’s an age-old need to want to be curious and know more than we already know. I can find countless articles about wellness and finding peace with yourself and whatnot, but I’m not going to link any of them. I will say this: Not feeling worth it because of what you are interested in is not something you should let anyone make you feel this way–yes, even if its your own family.
If you come from a more traditional Asian family, then you have probably three choices of a career and none of them deeply involve the arts. The rest of us either have loving parents who support us no matter what or will do their hardest to sway you in the path they have chosen for you until you are much older and realize this is not your dream nor your personal goal of happiness later. (full disclosure, my parents were of the latter and were- or rather are supportive of what I do).
So what do you do in such a scenario? You make your own rules? You break out and risk your family name? This is all very dramatic and may or may not apply to any specific situation, as everyone is different.
Luckily, if you love something strong enough you can do it if you have the internet. If all you want to do is write, then start with something like a blog. If you want to write news, think about interning at a local paper or news site. Be ok with blogging though. If you’re an artist, don’t be afraid to share your work online. Learn how to make a unique watermark for your images and work and disable copying. This might be easier to do when using specific sites geared towards artists like DeviantArt, where a community is just waiting to help you. If you love history and political science and see flaws in the American political system (or any other system, depending on where you live) then take a stance on it. The possibilities are endless for creatives. In fact there is a website created by a creative mind for those that are lost though many just tend to waste their time on it with memes and such. It’s called tumblr.
But is publishing itself dead? I wouldn’t say its thriving, but I wouldn’t say it’s in its grave quite yet. We like to say that to people who we hear write for *gasp* an actual print newspaper?!? But, is it really that surprising? To me, to be able to write on the staff of a newspaper is almost like an honor these days even if the pay is meager and the jobs are difficult with no appreciation for what you do if at all. Why? Because you’re doing a service to the community. A community that might be made up of people in their 60s. Where I live people might be around my age, but not the whole town. Not people who have lived here for years, no. The younger people are the one’s moving to bigger cities and doing big things while the older generation stays because of the town. And the newspaper. It is the traditional way of life. And yes, I might want to get a kindle one of these days but you feel fresh when you grab ahold of a newspaper and get the inky newsprint on your hands. You’ve just been swept up in the local news of the days which is probably not exciting, but its something. And it means something to someone.
People tend to generalize about things sometimes. Alright, maybe a lot of the time. I think that the problem is that everyone thinks about problems differently. You might say you agree, but you really don’t.
I’ve told some people I’m doing something, when I’ve told others another thing. I don’t really have a definite goal in mind, but say it turns out that I just end up teaching a bunch of little kids how to read? Then what is the point of any of this? Probably nothing, but I like to think that there is plenty of room left to not think too hard about it quite yet. Alright, alright so maybe I’m trying to avoid my problems by doing something entirely unrelated to that. But whatever. Life works that way sometimes.
I think it’s probably hard for me to say yes. But it’s also hard to say no. I don’t make sense, sorry. The thing is I don’t really like to commit to things I’m not sure about. At the same time, I might make too many problems for myself by not really saying no or saying yes. I’m a shrinking variable. I need water around me to stay afloat, but it’s hard when the water is getting deeper the farther you go and you’re starting to forget how to swim. Kinda like riding a bike after a long time and being like “hey, I remember how to do this!” and then forgetting how to start (sorry if that ever happened to anyone, like bad example maybe because who really forgets how to ride a bike?)
Since I’m straying from what the point is. Wait, there is none. I thought there was. Weird, guess I just made an assumption based on what others are probably thinking.
weird gif, that is also amusing but it’s not real otherwise I would have remembered that.
Random note: Today is May 1. I think this is important, not because it’s May Day (that is important, too I suppose) but I’m publishing like close to 11 PM so it says its the next day. This happens with a lot of my posts. Sometimes I queue up posts but not really lately. It’s like, if I wanna write I’m just going to do it. This week I definitely wrote every day. A blog post Tues. & Thurs. and other writings somewhere else.
More dancing? I’m just going to assume so (probably should just change this post to the dance post. Oh, well).
That enough? Yeah alright I’ll stop now. I think I got a little excited with the gifs there, but yeah. I hope it got you dancing. There should always be dance party going on in your head, keeps you alive. Alright, for real though this is pointless (the post, I mean but then again few of my posts have a real point soo..).
I set some goals, but reaching them long-term requires me to think differently about some things. I possibly need to change my thinking maybe. I think I’ll be alright if you keep reading, and trying to smile everyday too (whoever you are reading this, I mean). I’m alright writing this, so it’s all good.
Alright, I have just about had it. I am doing what I can and while I know I am not the only one, I still hate it. My little sister even has a job, part-time at the movie theater, but where I live that’s even a small victory. Of course, I want something which I can do and will love. Is is too much to think too hard about what will be? I thought so.
This is a bit of a rant. It’s not really hopelessness, but it’s more like “why?” I seriously am beginning to doubt my worth. It’s nothing. No point. I am a pointless dot who lives on Earth. Alright, sorry a little too dramatic there. But millennials want more. I know they do. They are not all lazy and they are not all just sitting around waiting (though, yes the majority of us are). Sometimes we want to curl up into a corner and pretend that none of this exists.
Without some people, I would be pretty alone. More alone that I already am. I hate sometimes how social media can squeeze us into tight connections that don’t always have meaning. Or we feel the need to create those bonds, because we have nothing else. Really, though. It’s branding. We all want to brand an image for ourselves, we just are not sure entirely of how to do that. Mostly for the reason that we really have no “brand.” I’m just me and it’s hard to say anything else besides.
Consistency is needed to promote yourself online. This is a pain too, but you either enjoy it or you love it. But atthe same time you also are thinking “what is the point of this again?” Oh right, I need a brand so I can promote myself to others, in a professional way (some people have two brands: One that is professional and one that is casual. I don’t really recommend this, it makes a person come off as fake but unfortunately we must separate the two and conform so therefore we all do it). Then this brand(s) will help me get an interview, then a job offer, then rejection. Then another job offer, and acceptance into a great company with full benefits and health coverage. Something we all struggle to find in a job these days. Alright, so the last one there is mostly a dream for people. It doesn’t happen. Does that make me sad? Yes and no. I am a part of a generation that really tries hard not to be too bothered by perfection and dreams. They don’t always amount to what we think they will anyway.
The real struggle then: Hoping all this will pan out. You know how people say that “hope” can really get you through some hard times, with some wearing those trendy “faith”, “hope” or “love” bracelets. Those things are just made of money to make us feel better. Mission accomplished for that, but not for our mind. That will forever be wondering “what should I do?”
I hope for now at least that these panic-stricken moments, where I stay up all night restless with a headache thinking of scenarios, will one day slowly subside and I will find peace in having employment at a place that is respectable and far away from here.