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Strive on

Don’t fall down. Or fall over. That might be worse. Unless that is your aim. It’s hard to tell what aim people have these days and what those aims mean, if anything.

Don’t be aimless. Be purposeful in your thinking. In your everyday. In the pursuit of the things that bring you great joy. Whatever or wherever that may be. Continue to strive for happiness that is equal measures practical and real. Maybe you have found what you’re looking for or maybe you have not, but hopefully, it ends up the way you would like it to.

We become realists when we begin to think of endings for ourselves. We envision how our lives might play out with what we have (or don’t have). Maybe we would like more, but know it won’t happen. We think about aging, we think about people, we think about mortality. Death is an ugly word but is one which we all think about on the days when things get too hard. For some of us, that is every day while¬† for others it is an every day they wish to avoid at all costs.

If you’re trying to find the answers through someone else, you probably won’t find them. You probably will not get to the place you need to. The place of hope and dreams. Maybe you’ll get there someday, but it hasn’t happened for you yet and you’re somehow ok with that.

So maybe you’re doing great or better than that even. Regardless, have a fantastic week, month, and rest of the year.

 

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My life’s pretty great..

I’ll be real here. I’m not sure what I’m going to write about right now. I know I want to write a blog post but for what particular reason I can’t really say. I could do a list or a look-back type thing but those are also overdone.

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In the grand scheme of things, I think my life’s pretty great. It’s marvelous in fact. I’ve got everything I could want going swell for me (yeah, I just used the word swell-deal with it). It might sound stereotypical, but the one thing I feel is missing is someone to share in my future successes with. I know that there will be more achievements in the future for me. I don’t know exactly what road I will be going down but I’m hoping that it will lead me to a happy place. A place in which I know that I can feel truly happy. Maybe a future career will be in education. Maybe I never felt like a leader, but I could be one someday. When one has to teach, they become a leader and example to their students. Without meaning to, the teacher sets the standard (whether that be good or bad, but it should always be great).

So are you doing great, person reading this? I don’t know your life story and how you ended up where you are now but I hope you get to your happy place. Everyone deserves happiness. Let it be the time to resolve all past conflicts, minor grudges and stop holding back on what you think makes you weak. Don’t wish ill on anyone else, happiness for all goes a long way. Hopefully, one day it will lead to real peace.

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Realistically Speaking

Technically, I’m going to school for journalism. But, whether I find a job I enjoy or eventually end up in there is another question. So, alright I will work towards an internship and a job in media. Preferably online media, but hopefully by then I will be able to also do some multimedia work. Who can tell, right? But, what about the other things I want to do?

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I don’t really have a bucket list or anything like that. But, here’s the thing. I want to travel some more, so if by chance I get an internship somewhere far I might consider it just for the opportunity. In journalism, no opportunity can be thrown away. I have to think about it, too though. Because, yeah as much as we might say that we love challenges and taking risks and all that (which is cool) but let’s face it we all have limits. I can definitely attest to that.

But I’m trying. I started an application for Teach for America last year but never completed it and well, it’s not going to happen (at least not this year). I think I want to do some more things before I venture out that way. But, not only that I also thought about applying to Teach English as a Foreign Language abroad. I’ve known some people that have done it with positive experiences, save where they might live, but I’m not really a big complainer in that respect. Again, it all depends what I can take.

Every now and then, I’m volunteering with events for the Girl Scouts. It would be a good idea to also get involved with the Boys and Girls Club. I’m not saying I’m trying to be a mentor or anything (I don’t feel like I have anything to offer on that, quite yet) but working with kids is great. Speaking of mentors, I’m currently reading Sheryl Sandberg’s book Lean In. She mentions in one chapter, that so many people have come up to her after a talk or lecture to ask her to be their mentor. To which, she has to say something like no mostly because that’s not how it works. You don’t need to ask someone to be your mentor, work with them and over time THEY will decide if they want to continue working with you and see where you’re going. I don’t think we all need mentors, but they are helpful as guides. The decisions we make should be our own.

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I also am into healthy living and eating clean. I think we try to care more about ourselves as we grow older. It’s maybe just how it is, but it also makes me happy. I want to teach maybe pilates or yoga. Or get certified in teaching Classical Stretch, which is probably my favorite workout of all time. Then, I’ve recently got into Zumba so I want to take a class in that. I want to get into vlogging. I want to tell people that its ok to dance sometimes, because life is short. I want to tell students that I feel their pain, but only if they’re studying otherwise its their own fault. Sorry, I’m being real though. No, really I just want to have fun but also have a job and realize that stress does nothing.

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But, I’m a writer first and foremost. So, realistically I’ll probably just be doing that for like ever. Hopefully, I find that one person someday because being forever alone is kind of one of my great fears as well.

Stay happy and think realistically of what YOU want!

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Your past can’t always define you (but it is part of you)

Yet again I sit down at my laptop to write another blog post. What this time? I don’t know, but I don’t really know much of anything these days so most of these posts have a relatively common theme. In the past week, I’ve laughed, smiled, felt sad, read some books, and pondered some things. So, really nothing from the usual. But, sometimes when you need to pick yourself up you look to the internet. Or family. Or something that reminds you that really you are not alone.

So, I could say that at the start of every week I hope things get better. It’s probably better to do something about it, rather than sit around hoping for change. I’m not that good at putting thought into action. I mean today was Martin Luther King, Jr. day and yet again it was spent not doing anything. I feel like I should be doing something though. We all remember, but do we really remember him. Anyway, I could go on about that. But, that’s not what this is about.

Rather it’s again about the news. It’s meant to be consumed. Maybe when we don’t have any news, we don’t know what to do with ourselves but then again maybe we do. There are gifs, puppies and kittens, plus all the cute babies just waiting to steal some of your productivity anywhere you go online.

So, right now I’m going to share a few (like three) Buzzfeed videos that I can relate to. Because they’re funny, relatable, and why the heck not.

Yeah, does that about sum it up? I do live at home, but for me it’s not as bad as you would think (I don’t have any friends, if we’re being real and no one wants to live alone–I did for awhile it did nothing for me). Also, I left Facebook for those same reasons as pathetic as that may be. Sometimes, I know that my life right now is just a series of mistakes that I made somewhere and I’m just waiting to look up and for it to be all over.

This is just everyday and kind of relatable, but kind of not really at all.

I was an English major and don’t advise anyone to be one. That being said, I don’t regret it either. Unlike some people, I don’t hate writing papers or reading long stories. I don’t really think like this guy, but I think many have larger than life goals. The most common question I used to get (and on rare occasions still do get) is “what are you going to do with that?” The most common thing people said was a teacher or writer, sometimes like me it was journalism.

So, this post has taken way too long to get through (I got distracted with some other videos, whoops). But, mainly I’m still going to keep trying. We all know who we are and we may not know what we want, but we’re all unique and weird in our own way.

I guess I’ll just be myself, that’s the way it should be anyway.

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Thinking too much

Too often, we wonder what will become of us in the future instead of the now. Sure, we all want to make something of ourselves, to be certain that we are able to understand clearly what are goals and objectives are regarding life and dreams. To meet that special person (if we haven’t already) and just plan the course of our lives. Of course, it doesn’t always work this way. Sometimes, we think that if we just held firm to what we know then everything would be alright. That is not always the case. In fact, sometimes it is the exact opposite. Sometimes, the things we hold close to us fall apart and with it our plans for the future.

Not everything is set in stone. Not everyone knows what will become of them. Whether you are a doctor, teacher, or engineer you are working everyday towards something you feel will impact your life in a positive way. Take journalists for instance, they work to bring the best story possible through the best means possible. There is always a fine line between what might be considered real and fictional, but journalists are essentially writers and storytellers trying to do their best to make sure a story is told from the right angle and sources are credible. This is a hard life, but it is rewarding for those that know exactly what they are doing at the exact moment in time. As I work to become more an experienced journalist, I began to see that I still have much to learn. Until then, I guess I will keep studying and trying to work as best as I can to get somewhere so that I can start.

I’ll leave you with a short, reflective poem (a dirge, to some. An epithet by others).

Queen-Ann’s Lace by William Carlos Williams

Her body is not so white as
anemone petals nor so smooth–nor
so remote a thing. It is a field
of the wild carrot taking
the field by force; the grass
does not raise above it.
Here is no question of whiteness,
white as can be, with a purple mole
at the center of each flower.
Each flower is a hand’s span
of her whiteness. Wherever
his hand has lain there is
a tiny purple blemish. Each part
is a blossom under his touch
to which the fibers of her being
stem one by one, each to its end
until the whole field is a
white desire, empty, a single stem,
a cluster, flower by flower,
a pious wish to whiteness gone over–
or nothing.

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The crazy world we live in

Today (and well, everyday), I keep thinking about how I need to do something to change my life. The way I live my life, something. Writing online is part of my life, but I wish I could do more and enrich myself in the process. The thing is this: I want to travel and to travel with someone that wants to travel too. I mean I still want to find that “dream job”, be successful and meet the right guy but not everything is quite up to par yet. For, now it’s best to stop worrying about my futile problems and look at those who have nothing.

I’m talking about people in the Middle East. In Syria. In Libya. In Gaza. People that have nothing and are wondering when they are going to get a break. The people don’t deserve to be waiting on a chance to live, they need to live because a lot of them are children waiting on the moment with empty futures. They don’t need pity either, they need peace. Except, the world forgot what that is. So, for just a moment–I think people should stop thinking about the pain in their lives and think about those who have it worse. I guarantee you your life is really not all that terrible when put into perspective. When you think about it, we’re all just starving for attention and waiting on the chance for someone to notice us. It all takes hard work and persistance, that hopefully will pay off over time. In the mean time, we need to work towards trying to form a bond between what is real and what is only in our heads. I hope that over time we can all reach the dreams and goals we set out to achieve.

I don’t mean to be ranting (sorry if it sounds that way), but I want it to be clear that one should be thankful. Not just on a holiday that is designated for one to be thankful, but everyday. You are much better off. I am better off knowing that I am trying to think about those who are not like me. I can’t save the world, but I can try to make others aware. Small steps can only go a long way towards making a change in one’s life.