What it means to do that is not always an easy road. Sometimes you have to give up the things that you enjoy in order to begin doing the things that you know will lead to great joy . Maybe this means you need to give up on a great job in favor of an amazing opportunity. In a time when doors are slowly opening for you, will you close the door or open it?
Since we’re talking about me here, I’ll open the door. Not without a little pondering first though. A little thinking on my part that is what I’m doing even worth my time? It’s one of those killer thoughts, that keeps you up at night staring at the ceiling and around your room, squinting in the dark at various things in your room. So, do I take the leap of faith or pretend that it will be fine if I do not?
The worst that can happen is that I will fail and fail miserably. This is not a hypothesis, its a fact. The greatest that can happen is that I will just barely succeed, because uncertainty is the brink of all meltdowns. Someone might be on the brink of one soon, if they don’t figure out how to help everyone at the same time.
Isn’t that what all the good people want? To help everyone? Well, help most people anyway (we can’t help them all; a fact that must be acknowledged). I want to help those that feel like they need help but don’t know how to ask for it. I want to give others the push they didn’t know they needed, because it will also give me that push.
Since I am still giving myself that push to push others, I will make myself do the hard things. The hard things are hard for a reason. In times of difficulty, I’ll work hard to stay strong.
I’ll work hard to make sure I am still doing what makes me happy and what I truly love.
Life is uneventful, until it is. When it appears that you are “busy” and engaged, then you forget to take time for yourself. Forget about the small things like reading a great book. Forget about how lost you are.
It’s probably in times of great heartache that we feel the need to collapse. To regain footing as it were. However, one can be sure of what they want when faced with two decisions: Do something or do nothing. For most people, the decision falls into the latter. Perhaps it’s the reminder of not having to stress about things in the past. What’s happened has happened. There is no getting around this fact.
It’s probably a great sacrifice to dedicate time to oneself. It’s a stretch to imagine that others around one would be interested in taking part in this clean mind activity as well. Because it is a cleaning of the mind that can have effective results. What are those results? Probably different depending on who is asked.
It’s probably a great time to take five. Take a break. Sleep, meditate, and walk. It’s not as though others will be joining in at this part. Hard work is usually a solo affair and the moments following this need to be solo as well.
Take time for yourself. Take time to breathe and know you are doing just fine.
It’s a nice time of year. Not really, but what do you want me to say here?
Every day might be a struggle, but I’m enduring it.
Every day might be more unproductive, but I’m managing it.
Every day I might be moving farther away from the person I wanted to be.
Every day I might not eat the foods that I want.
Every day I wake up and decide to do things and usually try to.
Despite the small setbacks of daily life, I am fairly certain that I am doing just fine. If I am at all honest, it would be to say that I am beyond fine. I am great. Not most days, internally (in the heart), but externally I can make those faces that tell others the story they would like to hear. Maybe some more than others.
It could be that I hear from an old friend today. Or that I uncover the reason behind why I am not doing what I set out to do. The reason behind why I am slow on many projects. I take my time, I think, I analyze, I discuss, and still think it important to carve out time for me. I focus on focusing on myself but then forget about the other projects. The irony is not lost on me.
So today I will be great. Maybe not a GREAT great, but up there. Quite possibly, I’ll find the spark today and my brain will ignite with possibility. I can hope can I not?
I can be free to hope and to dream for as long as I wish. It does nothing to dream without understanding why you dream.
This is turning into a post with a mind of its own. Have a splendid day that is whatever you want it to be. As it should be.
It would seem that the world is on the brink of something again. Or maybe it always was and I just decided not to pay attention. Whichever way you look at it, from any angle, there is something turning. A quarter or two might have fallen into the age-old pot of desires and dreams that you think you have.
You don’t need to resolve to do anything if you can’t resolve why you got out of bed today. The simple things are the easy things that take time to do in everyday life. The things taken for granted which you don’t always think about, but matter so much.
So, ok maybe you don’t make goals. You wonder, though how to better yourself. How to be a better “version” of yourself, as people like to say. How, then to go about adjusting the sails on your thought boat?
Think of it this way: New hopes are not structured like goals might be, making them a bit hazier. So you have new hopes. You have low hopes and you have high hopes, but none of those hope-y things are really goals (at least, not in your mind).
So it’s likely that you’ll keep hoping and you’ll keep wondering your next step. It’s not something you or I will admit but we have a failure of being brave.
As I watched the Disney film Brave today, I was reminded that it takes courage to say what you want to do and mean it. It takes determination to want to do and be someone different. It might mean stepping outside of your comfort bubble, but when you do you will be more steadfast in your maybe goals for the future. Aren’t Disney movies great? I’m feeling exuberant about nothing and everything.
So, be hopeful. Be watchful. The world is waiting.
I recently dreamt that I was being told that “my profession is a failure.” The person was not wrong, but the idea remains in my mind of how little I am doing each day. Of course, I always believe I could be doing more and setting goals that I will achieve. I know I am only letting down myself when I neglect a goal for the day.
In other times, it feels as though I am not doing enough to be happy. That should make sense when reading it the first time, if not rethink how you view happiness. It should come easily, it shouldn’t be forced and it should be about you. My great fear is that I am becoming a person of habit, but then its also not a fear at all because as most people get older this is a fact of life. I embrace this I suppose. I want to know how to stop feeling terrible about not reaching goals. It’s not really something that is easily achieved (irony).
In the case of the world, it’s terrible and none of what I’m saying matters. In your own life, you’re probably having a good week or a bad week (or maybe somewhere in the middle). You’re wondering how you got to this blog post that is going on about being happy and reaching goals and blah blah blah.
Maybe I’m just writing the basics of a suitable post. Maybe I’m just doing the basics when it comes to a generally happy life situation. I’m not quite there yet. If I can make it, so can you.
It doesn’t mean they have never been loved. It does not mean they think you are less than them. It might mean any number of things, you remind yourself as you try to not let the words get to you. Words are only words until they hurt. Sticks and stones can break you, but words will always hurt you inside more. However, if you keep faking it and continue to tell yourself that “words won’t hurt me” then you start to believe this until eventually, you are braver than you think. You can do anything because you are not afraid. You have pain, yes. But that pain is only secondary to the gratitude you will feel at having realized that the only person making it worse is you.
People can be selfish
Maybe you argue that you are also selfish. You are the bearer of your own problems and take full responsibility for all your actions. Possibly, however, all this creates a cycle of hating oneself. It doesn’t stop so easily once you have started either. You want what works for you, what is convenient for you and what allows you to do as little effort as possible. You know you can do more, you know you are capable but you rely on instinct as a reminder of what to do next. There’s nothing wrong with this, but when more than one person is involved it’s a tricky line between selfishness and laziness.
People can judge
Mostly because they don’t know you and also because making judgments about people we do not know is what society loves the most. A recent question I was asked revolved around me and danced around the idea of me being qualified as well as dependable. It started innocently enough, with a meaning to give new life to a certain place with the end result landing in uncertainty and slashed hopes. The question I was asked after going through my educational background and experience was: “are your parents here?” That’s all. A quick check to ask if I am legal in a way that does not seem offensive. It was anyway. I am legal. I am dependable. I am honest. I can give you what you are looking for, if only it was white.
People are not you
I know that you’re pretty awesome. I’m awesome too, by the way. I’m rooting for myself every day to reach the goals I set for myself. I hope that you are able to reach your own dreams as well. You probably already know this, but people are terrible and will try to bring you down. You can’t let them try to tear your mind open. You have to stand firm and allow yourself the knowledge that you are wiser than “them.” Why? Because you are not going to let the frustrations of disappointment get to you. No, you must not because when you do that you have let them won and you definitely do not want that. You are great and they are envious. Not all people can make their own personal goals, they must copy other goals.
Maybe someone once told you that you can’t do something and now it’s making you feel like more than a failure than usual. Someone might have told you “if this can’t work next month, then goodbye” or “hope it all works out for you.” These are only examples of things that will bring your self-esteem more down than you need it to be.
To get that self-esteem back, the best thing to remember is that you can’t live up to any expectations others set. You are your own person and you have your own goals. Achieve them on your own time and level. It’s best to think about it this way: Your success does not denote you to the same achievements as others, because those goals are not always what you really want.
What you really want then is to carve out a kind of goal that makes you feel fulfilled. Makes you wonder how you got so lucky at that thing called life. You didn’t, luck is not part of the deal it’s all chance and hard work (unless you don’t play by the rules).
You will get pushed aside and disregarded. It’s part of the goal to get you to a happier place and despite your best efforts, you will still not get where you need to be and what you want without a little pushback. The key is to not let those negative pushes turn into drawbacks for you. Keep striving and keep fighting.
The biggest battle to fight is that which is within yourself. You might not ever overcome it, or pull back from it in pieces and shards only. This is fine, as long as it makes you remember to stay on the path and push forward. Mistakes are just that: Mistakes. They are not an error on you or your character, think differently about your past choices this way.