I’m checking my progress to see if I’m doing alright and what I’m finding is that I’m doing ok. Physically and mentally? Those are both different checks that I’m not doing regularly. I could definitely be doing a better job of making sure that I am doing well. I could give a list of reasons why I might not be doing these regular “checks” but its possible most days I don’t know what to even check for.
Working abroad has its own set of issues to deal with. Since I work in a school, I need to be energized and motivated every single day. This is not always the case, especially on a Monday morning but I give it my very best. The reason why I think I could be doing more has to do with how I push myself now. It’s like a new feeling that I strive for now, one that I previously did not subscribe to. What I do is rewarding work, for sure but it can sometimes leave me feeling pretty worn out. Alright, not sometimes. All the time.
A thing I used to do when I came back from my last job (with an hour and a half commute time) would be to press a cold, wet towel on my forehead and shoulders. Sometimes two different towels, usually with essential oils of some sort. For ten minutes or more. This was my release and doing it let me forget about those around me and the stresses that come with that for just a little moment. It’s something I need to get back into, but saying it is easier than doing the task. I can’t say I follow my plans for the day to the “t” but I know that the more I do in a day, the more I feel productive and accomplished. Doesn’t anyone want to just feel accomplished? I thought so. Don’t lie to yourself now, I know that you want to feel good about daily goals, too.
Maybe I’m still working on being present. Or trying to take more risks. But, I know that I don’t have to achieve quite everything that I think I do. Let’s keep it to five things aside from work and I’ve done so much productivity it blows my actual mind. Not the literal mind, like the real mind. The one that writes these absurd blog posts.
I’m going to stop before I make any less sense.