Sometimes we don’t know what to do with ourselves. It’s like we know, but then we don’t know at the same time. Sometimes one can have so much time but have no idea what to do with. It’s just such an expanse of emptiness, stretching on for what feels like forever. There can be periods when we don’t really feel like ourselves, but we are still pretty happy. I’m not a hopeless cause, but I can name some that have given up on themselves. So, it’s been a while.
To say life happened after not posting for so long is what someone says when they don’t want to get into detail. No, really it’s been a great last few weeks. My family was visiting so my house was pretty packed. Filled with laughter, smiles and sometimes a little drama. I like to think about what it would have been like if I had lived or grown up somewhere else. Like in a big city, accustomed to the ins and outs of a busy city. But, no I live in a small town in the Midwest. I don’t hate it, but one begins to realize after a while that there really is nothing here. To see more one must step out of this small town life. I suppose the same is also true of those who live in a larger city. We all want what we can’t always have.
It’s hard to think about another way of life when your way is all you know. Not really, but pretty much. So, in this moment I’m fairly content just knowing that it all has to work out in the end. Because, if it doesn’t then all this will have been for naught.
Life is what we try to focus on when we don’t want to look a the problems. Life is the the reason why we are depressed. Life is bringing us down. It is long and dreadful, but also full of surprises depending on who you are. Just know that life doesn’t have to end one way and begin another. It can go on, the road is wide open and the path is beginning to clear if you look once again.
“Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans.” –John Lennon